Day dreams~~

so last night i can't actually remember my dream - but i remember how i started off day dreaming before i fell asleep - i was fishing :D but this is going to be a bit difficult to explain! i was fishing but i was trying to catch a star (they were like moving around, looking so pretty but they wouldn't come near my hook! I was sitting on a cloud - but i was upside down - it was like gravity didn't exist cause i was sitting under the cloud but that was on top to me, and my feet were hanging off the edge and i was swinging them, looking down into the sea of stars, and when i looked up i could see earth and the ground above haha, and all the clouds had fluffy white wings and they were flying upside down compared to the earth - but to me they were the right way up. And everything had a blue tint to it as it was brilliantly lit up by the huge moon amongst the stars. it looked so big and was so close i felt like i could jump onto it. When i looked up to the ground (i was like in a planes aerial view from the earth - like 40,000 ft above or wat evs) i decided to go up(down?) to it and so i put my fishing rod on the cloud (which was like the fishing rods i used to have as a kid - me and my brother used to find really long sticks, tie a fishing line to the end of it then at the other end of the line a hook and sinker :] used to work a charm!) and i jumped into the sky (but remember the sky to me is earth) and instead of gravity pulling me back down to the cloud - i started to fall with a incredible speed to the earth and i could feel it pulling on every part of my body like my heart was going to stop. i think i fell asleep then cause i can't remember anything else.

i wish i could remember more dreams. I do remember bits and pieces of certain dreams, but they become so fuzzy, and to just write down little bits of dreams i remember rather than the whole story lines seems to be a waste of time and space.. i just hate unfinished stories, or stories that finish with no real ending, they leave like a hole in your heart and a sense of loss or longing, and i can't bare that feeling! I also hate it when dreams don't resolve themselves, dreams seem to take a hold over your heart, whether they are good or bad. I guess you could say i like going to sleep at night because i get excited about what i am going to dream that night, but when it turns out to be a nightmare or if it doesn't finish, it just feels so horrible and i feel lost. Its like fir the rest of the day i don't know what to do with myself because I'm still just hanging off of that dream. To put it more clearly its like a addictive Korean drama that you only get to watch halfway through and then it gets cancelled, and there is no way to see the ending. Basically it kills you.

I do have more than dreams though. Like when i see things in my everyday life they can suddenly seem so magical to me.

raindrops danced as they hurried across the pavement in a torrent of star shaped ripples.

i don't know how to describe it. when it is raining i look up into the sky and i can see the raindrops coming down, but i can't remember them coming down because I'm too busy looking down at the pavement, where the water collects a bit and each raindrop seems to make it appear as though tiny little stars (which are actually just the places where the fallen water splashes) are dancing along the pavement, or the concrete. Its so pretty and captivating. It looks as though they are flowing down a river in a certain direction - what ever direction i imagine them to be going, and i can change it if i like as well.

a few months ago i went outside during the night after it had finished raining and when i looked up into the tree outside the back room, it looked as though it had stars on it. This was just because it was covered in rain drops and the light from the back room was shining through it, making it look magical. All i could see was the black silhouette of the trees branches against the dark night sky (though the sky was a lighter shade than the tree) and on those branches were tiny little diamonds or stars. I love that tree, it is so beautiful when covered in water droplets in the sun or night.

I wish i could remember more things but i just can't on the spot. I should really write down what i see and how i see it. I wonder a lot whether people see the same things that i do, and appreciate it as much as i do but i guess ill never really know.. Do other people see the beauty in the fading golden sunset light filtering through lace curtains, leaving flowery shadows on the wall? Meh, i suck at explaining things, but the things that i see, though they are so simple, seem to be so beautiful its like i can feel my heart overflowing with joy. Its like God has given me this gift, and the gift is just that i am able to see and love simply beautiful things, and because of that gift i know that even if my whole life falls to ruins, i will still be happy, even from the memory of those beautiful things. I don't know its hard to explain. All i know is that i am thankful to God for so much and it makes me love Him more and more each day.

crappy dreams that i want to remember anyway

ok so two dreams :
first i dreamt that i was Marilyn Monroe and i can't really remember the whole dream but the ending of it was this - i was suddenly aware that i was now Marilyn Monroe and i knew she ended up dying - and i was so scared i didn't want to die and i knew that this guy with brown hair (who was a twin of the guy who was at my house) was trying to kill me. So i was trying to figure out which one of them was which when i figured i needed to get away from there. so i got to the end of my driveway when a car pulled up and one of the twins was driving the car and they were really nice and told me to get in the car and i had a feeling it was the evil twin but i got in the car any way thinking that i could get away later on but then he started speeding like hell and i was trying to keep calm and casually say hey don't you think you should slow down - cause i didn't want him to know that i knew he was trying to kill me but that was when he pulled out a gun and ordered me to scream. So i screamed as loud as i could and he was like what kind of scream was that? do it louder and for longer this time and so i tried to but i remembered that my voice was sore and so this time screaming really hurt and i couldn't really do it and after i finished i cried and said to him that I'm sorry but i couldnt do it louder, and my voice had faded away entirely and was really sore so he knew that i could hardly talk now. That was when i realised that he only wanted me to scream then so that when he was doing some real shit then i wouldn't be able to scream for help then. So anyway suddenly it wasn't the middle of the day anymore it was the middle of the night and we had only gotten to the main street (which is two blocks away from my house) when i managed to jump out of the car when we got to a round about- and i ran for it past these shops and then i remembered the toy shop (that was there when i was a kid but not anymore) and i remembered that at night the toys would all be alive and they could help me and suddenly he was mr potato head, and before i ran into it he yelled haha you can go in there but you do realise the place is full of other potato heads just like me but i thought the other toys could help me anyway and so i ran into it and (btw the guy got out and was chasing me the whole time) when i got inside the whole shop was like the kindie from toy story 3 and i tried screaming for help but my voice was gone and he came up behind me and grabbed me and all the other toys were staring at me and all i could think of was where is woody? he would help me but he's not here! and i tried telling other toys what was going on and mr potato head was just like don't listen to her! she's a tad tired and crazy at the moment and he tried pulling me out of the shop but the other toys wouldn't let me go - they wanted to know what was the matter and i thought that i was saved but then he suggested why don't we let her have a rest while he explains whats going on and the other mr potato heads offered to take me out back so i could rest in the dark storage room and though i kicked and tried to scream the other toys thought it was a good idea so they lead me out and at that moment i knew how miss Marilyn Monroe died, it was the mr potato heads that suffocated her. And that was when i woke up.


i have no idea why i dreamt i was Marilyn Monroe - i don't even like her! i mean i don't dislike her either but i don't even give her the time of day to think about, except when i might randomly see a nice picture of her and think she looks pretty. other than that - i don't give a shit. Now that i had that dream though, i do feel sorry that she committed suicide. I have no idea what was up with my dream though, i know how she died so it was a really random dream!!!



second dream: i can't really remember it all that well. It had a bit of a story line too which was weird, and i don't mean it was like my other dreams where everything seemed to go in a flow, i mean this seriously started out as a story - the first part of it was where i was a girl and i was sad and lonely and i was gross looking too. i had no friends - what i remember this part as being like was - i was wearing a black dress and i was wearing boots and my white legs stuck out in the night sky and there were stars in the sky and my hair was greasy and gross looking - but during the whole dream sometimes my hair would be my natural gingery blonde and other times it would be black - i dunno, it was weird. Any way this part of my dream i was singing in opera lol about how sad and lonely i was, and apparently the day before a really cute guy had smiled at me and all i remember singing in my dream was "and he was beautiful, and he was beautiful" haha just remembering it makes me laugh so hard ROFL!!!!! its so embarrassing i can't believe i dreamt that hahaha um i can't really remember what happened after that but I'm pretty sure this whole dream played out mostly in that one night and then till the next day - and a lot happened in that time. Like i can't remember but that night i mustve had a shower or something cause somehow i had fell in love with a guy (though i have no memory of it), and then i must of split into two people because next moment i was watching the dream play out as a different person, watching what happened to me as i walked besides me giving my comments whenever i wanted to.

The only thing i remember after singing is walking next to myself down this street and this witch came up to me - not me but the other me who fell in love not split me, and offered me this steaming hot coffee cup - but inside wasn't coffee it looked like fanta, and the coffee cup was like the starbucks one except it was all white and on the outside was a black circle with a hexagon inside with a slash through the middle. Dunno, anyway she offered it to me - ok I'm going to refer to me - the one I'm watching as ranga and split me as ginga. So she offered it to ranga and she said it was a potion to make you have an abortion if you were pregnant (like drink it and it'll kill the baby inside of you)- and not only did i (as ginga) think that this was like snow white and the witch - i was thinking that the potion was probably poison and it will kill you if you drank it more quickly then give you an abortion - but i was also thinking about how i was against abortions and i never had sex with him anyway so i wasn't pregnant anyway - THEN YOU KNOW WHAT~ THAT BLOODY RANGA TOOK A SIP! as if to say she was pregnant that idiot!!! i don't even know what i was thinking! but nothing happened after that except i think a couple of my ex boyfriends turned up - the ones i made that night before i met the guy i was in love with at that moment. Yep. this night was long and i was moving fast through relationships. i don't even remember it happening - but i think at the moment in my dream i had decided it had happened already. anyway one of them was huge! like i remember in my dream thinking he could be a sumo wrestler- i think this is the only reason why i remembered him- he was samoan and he had telekinesis - cause when i went passed the dairy he started making pies and lollie bags n shit fly at me as if to attack me cause he hated me for breaking his heart. LOL!!!

no but after that i can't really remember, it was morning by this time something about nazis being at this park across the road from where i live, and hitler was going to attack anyone who came inside. so i was on the outskirts of it and i was about to go in when i met the caretaker or grounds maintenance - and he was seriously cute! like omg if i ever saw a guy that looked like this in real life i would walk up to him on the street and try to ask him out :D but anyway he was like hey and shook my hand and introduced himself as teddy (and he was wearing a dungaree with a grey t shirt) and before this time the two "me" had become one again, and so i decided at that moment i had broken up with my other boyfriend and so teddy asked me to marry him and i said yes. So all our family and friends came to that field and hitler had died so we were safe and we started to have the wedding. And i was in my pretty white lace dress and he was all good looking with his curly blonde hair in his dungaree at the altar with the priest and that was when i started to come up the altar and i happened to look up to the beautiful sunrise in the sky and for some reason my mind broke. And i started screaming and tearing at my clothes and pulling out my hair and i fell backward and some men held both of my arms up so i wouldn't fall (i think it was my brothers) and i was screaming "NOOOOOOOOO" while i was thinking "not another beautiful sunset!!! i don't want anymore beautiful sunsets!!!" which was weird since it was a sunrise - and the clouds and colours were indicating that it would be a beautiful day so that was making me even more terrified and sad and i was thinking "noooooo! i want a grey cloudy day! no more beautiful sunsets!!!" but nobody else had any clue what was going on so everyone thought i was like this cause i didn't want to marry Teddy. So he came up to me while i was screaming and i had no idea he thought i hated him., and i had no idea what was going on since all i could think about was how i was so sick of sunsets. and he took off his earrings that i had got him and they were silver studs (cause we didn't have rings we had earrings) and i took out my pearl ones and i threw them and the wedding earrings from the purple cushion on the ground and he looked so sad as he said goodbye T_T [now in real life i can't help but think NO my dream boy come back T_T]

so next thing i can remember I had realised what happened and i was two persons again, except ranga was in a tv and ginga had the remote control ;) and i remember i think ginga had explained to ranga what had happened and ranga had gone back to the field and found the three sets of earrings and i sort of cried then. Then i found out from ginga where teddy was and so ranga went to the train station, where like all the trains could go anywhere in the world, and i was there to get teddy back but i had no idea where he was or where he was going, all i knew was that he was leaving from there. and so i was standing on this series of staircases trying to look at all the peoples faces trying to look for him - cause all the people coming and going from the trains had to pass through there. And i looked so pretty, i had my hair up and it was ginger again with curls coming out of the up do and i was wearing this tight blue shirt that was shoulder-less with long sleeves and this tight skirt that had pink floral design. but i was so scared i was going to miss him, and i though i saw him for a moment so i ran down the staircase (which was well lit since it was midday day and the walls were glass - like my old school "tower", and then i realised it wasn't him and thats when the witch from the market came up again so i was stuck on the stairs with her offering me some magic to find my true love and i was kind of interested since i thought it could help me find him, BUT THAT WAS WHEN HE CAME UP BEHIND ME! and since it was so crowded he was stuck behind me and he didn't know it was me, and he was like "hey look sexy, you may smell sweet but can you fuck off out of the way?!" (the the ginga me that was watching was like "THATS HIM! LOOK BEHIND YOU!!!!" while i was also thinking "seriously i love THIS guy? he's an asshole!) and ranga i glanced behind at him, i was going to say something mean back, but before i could get a good look at him the witch said something else and i looked back at her and he quickly shoved past me, still not knowing it was me, and continued down the stairs while i still talked to the witch, and me, ginga who was watching this was horrified cause even though i was a bit pissed at him i still knew i loved him and wanted to find him, and so i was screaming at the screen that it was him and thats when i heard me, and ranga realised it was him and started running down and i couldn't find him, so me ginga rewound the video and instead of watching me i watched where he went (btw he was wearing this really ugly peach shirt with pink sunsets and palm trees on it - which made me think even more what do i see in this guy, besides from the fact that he was a fitty) and i tried to tell me where he was but when i got to where he was a moment ago he was gone and i couldn't find him again on the tape :( and that was it. I woke up after that. I tried to go back to sleep but it never really worked out, i sort of dreamed i caught up with him and swore at him, why the fuck didn't he ask me what was going on, what i did didn't mean i hated him, i was just having a seizure and why didn't he worry more about me when i acted like that? and he just said nothing, standing there looking at me (more like glaring but whatever) and i said "you know what, if you don't want to be with me fine, but i just want you to know that i love you and always will, and if you want to be with me even a little let me know now or ill leave and ill never bother you again", and he said "is that all?" and i just said "fine. goodbye teddy. i love you." and walked away. and i went straight to the market to where the witches stall was and knowing that the fanta really wasn't a potion to get abortions but that it was truly poison i drank the whole lot, but what i hadn't realised was that he had stood there for a minute after i left then took off in the direction i went trying to catch up but by the time he got to me i had already drank it all and was almost dead on the ground. so he held me in his arms and i told him i loved him and died. then he tried to drink the last drop in the potion but it was all gone :( so that was it, i woke up again after that.

Damn i wish i could come up with happy ending for that :[ cause it really frustrates me, that i have no control over my dreams. I think the reason why i started to scream at the sunrise was cause it reminded me of that dream of the sunset with the bull - and i kind of knew from there it was going to turn into a nightmare and i didn't want it to cause i liked what was happening. I think i also realised it was a dream at that point and i didn't want it to be - because teddy was so cute. I think i liked him so much since he reminded me of someone i knew in real life. Emphasis on "reminded", I've never seen or met anyone who has looked like that before. I also tried to come up with another ending since i didn't like that ending either but when i fell asleep it only landed me in the south island of new zealand, chasing him and then having some sort of thing wrong with me where i started having another screaming fit but this time blood came out of my ears, eyes, nose and mouth and i ended up dying in his arms again. ITS LIKE ME AND MY DREAM GUY ARE NOT MEANT TO BE T_T but *sigh* i think its just as well. I kinda find guys with blonde hair gross anyway, it would have never worked out. but i still can't get over the fact that because he no longer loved me i went and drank the poison - like seriously in real life if a guy i loved didn't love me back I'm not pathetic enough to go and kill myself. This dream also really frustrates me since i was not acting like myself half the time, i was doing things that i would never do! bleh! I'm only writing this dream down since there are a few things in it that i don't want to forget - like the outfits and the fact that i screamed I'm sick of sunsets - which is amazing! they are like my favourite things in the world- and sun rises. Am i truly sick of them? maybe i am and i just haven't realised it yet :T i don't know! i still feel the dream haunting me and its like i can feel that emotion hanging on my heart - of dreading sunsets :T i wonder what tomorrow will be like?

tomorrow: i still love sunsets, seriously, what was so bad about them when i was sleeping?


x g!nge~

just remember these!

So i don't really have time to write these dreams down now but i don't really want to forget about it yet. There are two dreams that i want to remember, the first one: i don't really care about the whole dream, its just that one part where i walk out onto the old steps of my house, (the ones that are now gone) where i can see the sunset from. Its the most beautiful sunset i have ever seen, even though it wasn't even real. Just those colours of blue .... at the top, ranging from light to dark ~ like how it is on a beautiful sunny day. then there were white cumulus clouds stretching over the horizon, dark at the bottom but lit up and golden at the top. And the sun ... peaking out just over the church ... a golden light that just lit up the whole sky. It was so .... beautiful. I just find it so funny that at that point in my dream, just before i stepped out of the door onto the steps, i was thinking to myself that i knew i was dreaming, and i had to wake up in the morning. But it felt so real...and as i was stepping through the door i was telling myself to wake up!! But just as i was thinking "how do i wake myself up?" I saw that sunset and i just froze. And then suddenly i thought to myself ... "no, i don't want to wake up. I'm just going to sit on these steps like i did when i was younger and watch the sunset." And for a few moments, i felt like i was watching heaven. But then that stupid black bull appeared in front of me and i was so scared that it would see me and attack that i just stayed still and thought, "OK now i want to wake up". And i thought that if i stayed absolutely still it wouldn't see me, and then it jumped into the ground, which should have been the ground but suddenly the ground was water, and although it still looked like the ground and the hedge was there, it was peaking and troughing like waves. And it swam for a bit then surfaced and shook its head to get the water off, and the sunset was still there, and i was thinking to myself maybe i could sneak in the doorway when it wasn't looking. But it was moving so fast and turning around all the time i realized i couldn't do that or it would see me and it would get to me before i even had a chance to get in the door way. So then i just thought maybe ill wait for it to leave and while i was waiting i could watch the sunset. So there i sat, though every two seconds i looked back at it to check where the bull was. And after that the dream went somewhere else while i tried to wake myself up. Which reminds me i have to look that up! And it also reminds me of a dream i had about a year back where sharks swam in the air, and they couldn't go in water, and the ground everywhere had turned into water, so to get to one house to the next you had to get on a boat. And the only way to get away from sharks when they attacked was to jump in the water haha Don't really remember much from that dream though besides from that.

And the other dream i want to remember is the fairy dream. DO NOT forget about that! Maybe i should go into detail on that one ... basically ill start from before i even fell asleep: I had gotten into bed and lay down and i must of fell asleep instantly because i was thinking about how crappy i think my life is at the moment. I haven't been able to find a job for almost a year now, and I'm so sick of basically being called a bum. I was wishing i could get out of this lifestyle when i wished i could leave here forever. And that was when i pretty much had this great idea that i should runway to fairy land. I used to be obsessed with fairies when i was a kid, so i *knew* that if you ever eat or drink anything in fairy land then you can NEVER return to earth. So i got up out of bed, got ready, packed my bag full of things i thought i might need, and the bag sort of shrunk to the size of this old purple velvet pouch i had as a kid and i put the long cords around my neck. It was midnight but the moment i walked out the door the sun was rising, and it was my favorite kind of morning where the sunlight was filtering through the tree which was laden down with dew drops, which made the tree look like it was full of diamonds. The whole place was filled with sunlight which made everything seem like it was in a golden haze. I walked down the pathway through the garden and into my back yard (which is quite big). I walked through the garden, trees, and past the chicken pen, right to the back of my property where there's like this bush/jungle type area. For some reason i knew exactly where the entrance to fairy land was, and i think in my dream i could sense the fairies knew i wanted to go to fairy land so i could hear them talking, whispering and laughing (just like how i could as a kid).

 So i went to the corner of the bush area and crawled through the little hole in the bush that i had always crawled through as a kid (in real life i cant fit through it anymore) and came to this tree stump. There used to be this extremely tall tree at the end of my house when i was a kid, you could see it from anywhere in the whole suburb where i live, and it used to be easy to point out from like one tree hill, but it was cut down when i was in my teens, and since it was such a huge tree it had left this stump as big as a table. I tried to have picnics on it, and so in my dream there was the table cloth on it that i had wanted to use as a kid, and sitting round the stump having tea with jam on toast and having a good old debate was a hedgehog, a lizard, a sparrow and one of my mums ginger chickens. I sat down to join them and we were talking about something when they asked me what i was doing and i said i was going to fairy land. They were all shocked and warned me not to eat the food or i would be lost to the faeries forever and i remember saying i don't care I'm still going and they tried to persuade me otherwise, which got me really angry so i got up in a huff and stalked over to the entrance of fairy land, which was like a through this narrow part right at the back of our property which was covered in vines. I slipped in though and looked around and ...omfg i cant remember! I don't think i can remember anymore ... i remember at some point in the dream  i fell through these books and instead of falling *on* the books i fell *through* them and the books and i kept on falling through this void till i ended up in this dark pit. But that was when i was trapped in the sorcerer's cave. Some of its coming back to me now... when i started walking through fairy land i had ran into this ..i don't know what you call them. I thought they were brownies but they must be called something else cause when i looked up brownies that wasn't them. I used to know what they were when i was a kid. Basically they look like male faeries, but they have rows of sharp teeth and sharp fingernails. This one looked like this guy i knew, who is the son of a  friend of the family. In my dream his hair was really dark brown (but its not in real life) and his skin was more tanned than usual. He was wearing this brown shirt and he was smiling at me (like he always does, but with rows of sharp teeth).

I already knew what he was in my dream, and i knew how they ripped your heart out from you chest with their claws and ate it while it was still pumping while you watched them do it as you died. He was saying sweet things to me, trying to make me come closer but i freaked out and started running for it. In real life he is a faster runner than me and he started laughing as he came after me, and he was like "woohoo" as he ran saying "you know you cant get away from me!". I kinda knew that he was just playing with me now, cause he knew he could catch me so he was just savoring the chase. I saw this cave and i just darted straight for it. I thought i could hide from him there but then i remembered that they had a great sense of smell and could smell me out so i tried to sneak back out but then i saw him heading straight for me. I ran deeper into the cave and found that it just kept on going, i couldn't see a thing but my footsteps echoed around me, so i just kept running for it. I could hear him behind me screaming "NOOO! Come back here!" and as i kept running i heard his footsteps get further and further away till they finally stopped. I wondered why he stopped but up ahead i started to see a light, and i just bolted for it. I got closer and closer till finally i came to the end of the cave, and it turned and opened into this huge room. I remember the fire blazing in the fireplace, and some things about the room, pillars carved out of rock, candles everywhere with wax dripping down, books every where and these weird metal instruments, some i recognized as measuring things. I don't remember much at this point except that i found out it belonged to a sorcerer, he had long straight black hair to his waist, light blue eyes and really white skin (shaped like jaco van den hovens eyes but he didn't look like him). All i remember was that he was totally horrible, and that's when i fell through the books after arguing with him.

I cant remember much after that. I f anything ever comes back to me ill update this. But other than that~ that's it :( OMG i wish i could remember more!

Monday 26 august :

two things i remember about this dream : One was that when i first stepped into fairy land it looked like the cover of this book i used to have as a wee kid. All the pages were see through but they had paintings of a hill, a tree or a duck on it and each time you turned a page it revealed the hill behind the front one. It was so cool and i completely forgot about it! I cant believe i dreamt of it being fairy land haha.
Another thing i remember was that in the sorcerers fire place were fire salamanders. I remember now because they were what was making the fire blaze so brightly. They were just lazing around in the fire, sometimes one crawling on top of another to sleep better.

So little time, and such short memory TT

I have so many dreams that are often too complicated for me just to come on here and quickly write them down. I wish that i could have a better memory so that even after a long period of time, i would still be able to remember them. That way, when i actually have the time and privacy to log into here, then i would be able to write them down. Sucky.

I cant really remember my dream from last night. But my dreams are so fun, i have a really great imagination when I'm asleep, but its like when I'm awake my creativity is zero. Must be the depression kicking in. I must feel more freedom while I'm asleep :T


So Ill probably work backwards from the last thing that happened in my dream last night, maybe that ll help me remember.

So the last thing i was doing was looking down this staircase, I was in the middle of it, like there were more stairs leading up above. I was holding my rifle and getting ready to attack, cause i had no idea from which way they would come. All the lights were on and the frames and staircase were all white, while the walls were pink, and the lights all gave a kind of soft golden glow. Then suddenly the door to my left opened up, and two elderly people came out, one a old pakeha woman with curly white hair and the other a old Asian woman with stark white straight hair. I wasn't sure if they were OK or not, but the way they looked at me and moved so nimbly gave me my clue. I battered the old pakeha lady across the head with my gun/club then pushed her body down the stairs. The Asian lady got to me though, she grabbed me, and i sort of froze before pushing her over the side of the rail and down the set of stairs. I looked down and a girl with black hair and white skin was looking up at me. I looked up and some boys were running down the stairs towards me, I screamed RUN to the old people i were protecting in the room behind me, and stayed there to hold the invaders back. Then i heard movement outside my window and woke up :) So that dream pretty much ended halfway through and i have no possible idea as to how i can end it T_T

Before that i had ran into this room, and saw some old people sitting in these old chairs watching TV, one was a old guy and the other a old lady, they were so shocked to see me and the old guy stood up saying "Oh!" But I told them to stay still and quite, I put down my precious backpack with *her* in it (oh btw Ive transformed into a guy at some point) because i know i can fight better with it off, and it will be protected because no one would think to go after a backpack. I move towards the doorway to the staircase to the left, i can hear some screaming above, some banging noises, and i see a body fall down the stairs, the boy screaming (probably in his teens) as he fell, then thud as he hit the stairs below.

And before that, I was with the people who worked/lived in the building - which was a rest-home, at the bottom floor, there were windows instead of walls for the bottom, i could see the invaders outside, I whispered orders at the people to follow me, i was going to take them to a car outside and lead them to safety, but that's when i see the invaders coming closer, looking like ordinary people. I was at the door with my hand on the handle, i see them running closer, we are all already standing at the door, so i lock it and tell them all to remain very still, and they wont be able to see us. (Because it is so dark and for some reason, there are mannequins in the other windows, so i knew it would work - dream logic haha). Everyone stands very still except for this stupid chick with a bright pink jumper on, and long straight brown hair with a fringe who keeps looking at them, then looking at us and gaping with her eyes open while crying, looking like she wants to scream, so i tell her to stay quiet and stop moving, but she wont, and the invaders are all standing at the door/window now, looking in. They see her, then this girl with dark brown hair and white skin and brown eyes looks into my eyes and i know, they are going to kill us, and i scream to all the people inside to "RUN! UPSTAIRS-GO! GO! GO!" Just as that happens i see from the corner of my eyes the a black man amongst the invaders holding up a axe to the window (which is bullet proof btw) and bringing it down upon it and it cracks and i know it wont hold up - their weapons are too powerful. Everyone starts running upstairs, and i try to get in front to direct them where to go, and we go into this room and i see french doors in it, so i tell the people to go through it and try to get to the safety point - One Tree Hill, (which is a good 15 minutes running up the hill - probably 30 mins slow walking from the place in my dream) and some go through but some keep running up the stairs in a frantic terror and i yell "NO! Come BACK! URGH!!!" And start running up the stairs after them, knowing the invaders could fly and could come from the above soon, though they may not have reached the back yet and that was our only escape/hope. We could not overcome them if they were to surround this rest home. I get to the next floor and see some persons leg just as the turn the corner into the next hallway, so i run down the hallway to catch up, but when i turn left then it comes to two different hallways, and i don't know which way they have run, so i take the right as i can see the other leads to more stairs, and that's when i run into the room with the old people in it.

Bleh this is getting really boring writing this dream, so i wont bother to write everything i remember now. Just the main points.

So before that part, i was driving up the road as fast as i could, when i see one way up to One Tree Hill is blocked, so i try to turn left and go up another way i know - which is this road that is one way, and on either side of it is a rest home and a driving school, the roads kind of fork out to two and i wanted to take the road through the driving school but it is blocked so i think, Doesn't matter, ill go up the rest home one but then my car breaks down T_T So i scream "get out" to the people in my car, and we run into the rest home building. I look back over the view of the place i live, and for one moment, everything looks normal, but then my eyes go back to normal (a spell had been cast over the place to change what people see) and i see the fires and hear the gun shots in the distance (our only weapon against them- which actually don't work against them - the only way to truly fight and kill them is by overpowering them in a sword fight or by using old weapons). I can see the invaders getting closer to where we are - i had gotten ahead of them by being in a car but i cant get away now. I mentally curse myself for not getting that motorbike Ive always wanted. So we go inside and i have lots of memories about the place, before it was a comic book store, blah blah blah, memories thought of here (dream ones-in real life this is my old school haha), moving on, there are old people inside and the nurses and caretakers and they have no idea what is going on, and so i explain to them what is happening, and they start to freak, so that's when i say "come on!" Thinking Ill take one of the driving school cars - ill just hot wire it. And we run to the doors/windows.

So before that i had gotten into my car at my house and yelled at my friends which were my next door neighbors to get into the car, and we got into it and that's when i remembered reading somewhere that One Tree Hill was a safety point (cause i was really into magic and stuff when i was a kid). Like the invaders couldn't get to us from there. So i started driving towards it as fast as i could and the streets were pretty much deserted like there was no one around.

And this is the difficult part that i find really hard to remember. In stead of going backwards now i think ill just choose a point of which i can remember and go from there.

So i was in my bedroom and i was running around getting everything together. I grabbed my backpack and started stuffing a whole lot of supplies i thought i might need into it.

~~~~~~~;thought id just publish this one, its incomplete but ill forget about it if i don't! FINISH LATER whatever you can remember by then.


26-Aug

Meh, so i don't remember much of this dream anymore, but the bits and pieces are still in my head. Without going into too much detail, this dream was sort of like from a memory of a nightmare i had when i was a kid, where i learnt how to fly (that was the fun part, but the flying ninjas who were out to kill be was the nightmare part). But in this dream it had been granted to me by the fairies~ that i could fly. They had taught me how to when i was a kid, but in this dream i had now grown up, and i was just teaching my friends and family how to fly when suddenly there is this big invasion by the kingdom of elves fairies and mermaids who are the enemies of our kingdom (or the one i am affiliated with - like there is fairyland and earth in my dream and the enemy kingdom who is our enemy in fairyland is now invading earth- who besides me have no idea about fairyland!). Its really pretty the image i have of the fairies - who are dressed in blue, some are flying and some are not. They all have old weapons like spears, swords, axes and bows, and they are all amazingly stunning to look at, like they all have a certain glow about them which makes them beautiful. ANYWAY~ they are out to get me and kill me and so ... i have to get away and i think i remember i tried to talk to them, to reason with them, but it was futile so i ran inside my house (this was all happening in my backyard btw, though there was like a portal open so i could see into fairyland and into the trees and valleys behind the portal) and i ran into my room and i started packing my bag. For some reason i sort of split here, and now there are two of me except one of me is a guy. And i cant remember why but for some reason i have a great amount of power and magic and i am earths, or well Auckland's only hope of stopping the invasion. I know that i can plan my retaliation from One Tree Hill, and not only that but it is a safe point where their magic cant get to us, and they cant enter it. So the guy me suggests because i am so important that i should hide in the bag while he carries me to One Tree Hill, and so I (girl) shrink and get in it, and  i love this image in my head where i am stuck in a series of cob webs, safe and secure. Its like dark but the webs are white and I'm in a white dress. So after that it switches only to my guys point of view and i run outside and that's when i get in a car in my driveway and yell at my friends to get in, while I'm worrying about my family who live so close to One Tree Hill, and I'm hoping they go that way. And that's it, without going into too much detail its much shorter haha.

Some old dreams

Had these ones quite a while back, i found them while i exploring the labyrinth of folders i have on my computer :D Thought id just add them here, though i wrote them aaaaaaages ago! ~

How I write these are either a shortcut to explain my thoughts/ how i think things (usually i just have thoughts, with no words), or even in my dream there could be a narrative.

lol by the way .. i mostly have nightmares -_-"

*Black moon

A girl. Long golden curly locks fall past her shoulders, and her white dress sways in the wind. Her skin glows in the moonlight, its light enhancing its ivory colour. She is standing in the middle of the country side, upon the top of the highest hill. The moon is at its full, all the clouds parted in the sky, surrounding and circling the moon. The clouds are dark, and instead of snow falling from them, ashes fall from the sky. A few of them fall on her eyelashes, fluttering as blue eyes divert their attention downwards. The hills open to a valley way below, where she looks on. A small village sits in the center of a stream that flows through the middle of the valley, the only source of light coming from the moon that hangs above it. It is a small village, quaint in its size and structure. A small bridge connects either side of the village over the stream. She stares on, all emotion void on her face. Her destination.

A white house on the corner of the street, its window wide open, its blue curtains swaying as the blustering wind pulls them outwards to the open sky. The house looks almost blue in the moonlight, as it rises against the shadows. She waits before it, waiting patiently. A small girl approaches from the blue door opening from the structure. She has dark brown hair, and brown eyes. Her skin is pink with colour, battling the harsh blow of the cool night air. She walks towards the beautiful figure and smiles. She takes her hand, pulling her along. She wants to play. Often the little one sneaks out past the time the sunsets, and waits till her parents fall asleep to play in the darkness. She is excited for finding a playmate finally in the darkness, and she is welcoming to the new presence. Her heart is warm with happiness.

Specks of blood is splattered along the road. The girl is no where to be seen, but her window remains open, waiting for her return.

Many nights have passed, and many a moon. It is again high in the sky, and in full bloom. The clouds once again circle it, as ash falls from the sky. The girl has returned, unaged and as beautiful as ever. Beside her this time, stands a small girl.  She holds her hand, though, there is no emotion evident on her face. Her heart, once warm, no longer glows from the touch of her companions hand.  The window remains closed now, and all doors locked.

Many dreams later ~~~

Side by side, they stand together, once again upon the hill top. All emotion is void upon their faces, the only sound that can be heard, is the roaring of the wind. A new presence appears, and the older girl looks up. The silhouette of a man against the night sky, his dark curly hair waving in the wind, his lily white skin sticking out in the shadows. Though she cannot see them, she can feel his eyes upon her. Her master is here.

>>And another dream i had to do with this one was not long after i had those other two was the girl and the older lady had appeared at the same village again, like 100 years after the little girl was killed, and the same house the girl had lived in had the window open again, and a small boy with brown hair, fair skin and chocolate brown eyes was playing out on the streets, and the little girl went up to him, smiling at him (showing rows of sharp teeth), and he smiley back, and as they started to play "ring a ring a Rosie" the older girl walked up and the younger girl took the boys hand and led him to the older girl, who he smiled up at while she looked down with a smirk. That was it. He was dead after that.

*Aim for the apple

He was the best there was. World known for never missing a shot. Not once since he first picked up the bow and arrow when he was nine. His name was legendary. Everyone watched as he held up his bow, stretching the string, his arrow in place. His blue eyes narrowed on the target, as his strawberry blond hair waved slightly in the breeze, tied back with a green ribbon. His best friend had suggested they play a little game. Thirty yards in front of him stood he stood, with a bright red apple resting on his head. His friend stood tall, chest puffed out, proud to participating with his friend in font of the on looking crowds. Woman in bonnets and men in white wigs looked on. Today was a day to remember.

All was silent, and with the release of his finger grip on the arrow, all that could be heard was the soft hiss as the arrow flew through the air and met with its destination. Screams shook the air, as blood tainted the grass beneath him. As his friend fell, the boy ran to him, crying and shouting out to the stunned onlookers. Taking his head in his lap he cried as he looked over his friend. Wide with pain, all acknowledgement of his presence were void in his friends eyes. People crowded around, woman sobbing, as his friend choked and gagged on blood. His last breath, consisted with a mouthful of blood, and a arrow sticking out of his Adams apple.

It was a mournful ceremony. Articles in newspapers appeared nationwide. The legend was over. Many people tried to comfort him, assure him it was not his fault, that it was just a tragic mistake. And he would sit there, listening, without a word as he would stare on into the distance, and smile meekly at those who spoke. All had heard about his calamity over the unfortunate mistake. They would whisper as he passed. He had never missed, not once in his lifetime, until that fateful blue summers day that took his best friends life. And he would wonder as he heard them... he had never missed. Not once in his life. And that day under the green apple tree, while all the lords and ladies had been watching, had been no exception. He never missed.

lol, ill never forget that dream, it was the first time that i ever dreamt i was a boy hahaha freaked me out but i liked the overall dream so i decided to write it down. It was also one of the first dreams of mine i ever wrote :D And of course you can guess which boy i am if you know my hair colour ~ (hint, its strawberry blonde/ginge)