Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Asian dad and egypt

so this dream  i had a couple of weeks ago and i guess i like the idea of it but i can't really remember it. Its the future. And grr lets just say i only remember some vague pictures in my head. Ok so my dad  - who for some reason is a asian middle aged man - has been arrested and he is being framed for something he didn't do and i know he is innocent. So i can't remember how but i break him out and we get in a modern day car - which looks like a bullet, and it rides along these tracks which are actually just red laser beams.- and they go everywhere and in all directions. So we get in a car - which in my dream we call bullets. And we speed off but cops come after us - i don't remember what they look like. Flying angels i think on motorbikes. Black wings, helmets and harley davidsons. Any way so my dad tried to tell me not to break him out before but i did it anyway, and now he is telling me to leave him behind and to get away myself - but i refuse to so i head out on the beam that gos into the centre of the desert, which leads straight to this ancient egyptian pyramid. 

But i don't know that yet. So i don't really remember what happens in between me fleeing with my dad and the next part but ill just explain the next part. 

Im in the desert and my dad is not there, but this lady who is a reporter is. She is really pretty with dark brown hair, eyes and white skin. Im hiding from the police who are more like soldiers of the government - that is literally what they are like in my dream - not police cops though they are referred to as cops. And the government have this power though nobody knows if its magical or not, and this pyramid is one of the main land marks of the country as a symbol of their power. So Im pretty much petrified that somebody will find me but the lady reporter has befriended me and assured me she can get help for me. We are standing close to the pyramid - but we are hidden by this gigantic hill next to the pyramid. She walks around the hill and i follow, and as we come around the side of the hill it opens up and i realise this huge hall has been carved out from the side of this hill- maybe it could be called a small mountain. It has pillars lined at the entrance and she tells me to wait here and goes inside. For some reason i feel so unsafe here, I'm terrified and i can feel the evil all around even in the air. I can see her inside the cave - hall thing and its eerily lit up - it looks like it should be lit up by fire torches but there is no flame or light bulb in sight, and yet the light is a soft honey glow that flickers. She is talking to someone but i can't see anyone in there - which is weird since the place is huge - and i mean bloody huge, i can't understand why she is talking- in a weird language that sounds a bit like singing. She calls me in and when I finally reach the middle, i hear this rumble and this roar in the distance - at the back of the hall which is not lit up and goes on forever. I know I'm in trouble now and i turn to scream at her that she tricked me, but she has already run out of the place and i can see her on the outside standing there smiling with her beautiful yet at the same time ugly face. I know i will die if i don't get out, i have no idea what is in there but i know she has led me to be its food or something. I start running to the exit but the ground starts shaking like a earth quake beneath me, and the ceiling starts coming down and the walls sink into the earth, and the closer i get to the brilliant bright white light of the entrance, the smaller and closed off it becomes until finally, i reach it and its closed off. There is no light now and I'm left alone in the dark, its pitch black and i can't see anything, and thats when i hear this sound, the sound of billions and millions of bugs scuttling over rock, i have no idea what they are but i start running, i can't see where I'm going but i run anyway, thinking there must be another way out, but thats when i feel them, they start crawling up my legs and i can feel them in my pants and thats when i realise - they are ants! I have ants in my pants. Sounds funny to me now but in the dream it was terrifying, they were crawling all over me and up my body, biting me and I'm trying to scratch at my pants and I'm jumping up and down and hitting my legs and arms to get them off when i remember I've got matches in my pocket - because i suddenly decided in my dream i smoked though i had no cigs on me. I get them out, fumble with the one match inside the box then finally light it and thats when all the ants finally scuttle away, and in the light i can see them surrounding me, just a metre from me, their black bodies shining in the light and surrounding me like a never ending sea of black, the view of them fading into the darkness around me. I realise the flame is getting closer to my fingertips  i can hear the thing in the distance roaring and getting closer, and feel the thump thump thump. The light is about to die and i take in my surroundings and realise i am about to die. I feel a choking feeling at the back of my throat but stop myself from crying. The light burns my fingers and i fling it to the ground, but before it goes out i hear a little voice next to me - there on the ground - get it! I look and in the second before the light goes out i bend down and grab it - a yellow lighter. Don't ask me how or why, its just there ok? The second the light goes out i hear the scuttling of billions of ants racing towards me - but then i light the lighter and they stop - and start scuttling away from the light again. I look around on on the ground next to me i see a black crow - and i pick it up and it starts talking to me, it tells me its name - some hard name i can't remember and its a prince, and he turned himself into a crow when he last got lured into here, so the egyptian demon god won't get him, and he has been stuck in here ever since. He says he knows a way out, but his wings are broken so i will have to carry him. He tells me what way to go, and as i head in that direction i can hear the ants scuttling as they try to get out of the way of the oncoming light, and following behind me. Its like they know once the light goes out again, they will have me. Don't ask me how or why they didn't eat prince. 
So I'm walking fast with the lighter in my hand into the darkness and he tells me to walk ahead, and then left then right and it seems to go on forever him telling me what direction to go in and yet the darkness is never ending, i never come to a wall. He tells me to run now and we can hear that the demon thing has finally reached where the entrance is and has discovered i am gone. Its roaring and i can feel the ground tremble and vibrate with the sound, and then thump thump thump as it starts running to find me. I run faster while Prince continues to tell me which way to go then suddenly i turn a corner and I'm in a room. I can't really remember this part now, but it was my favourite part since it reminded me of my dreams of when i was a kid. When i was a kid i believed i could fly, and my dreams and reality used to get so mixed up i have these memories of flying but they mustve been dreams. So this part of the dream was like a memory, and i was in this house that i had been before - but i think it is only a memory of a dream i had as a little kid. The walls are all white stone, and its hard to describe the place. Im in a room, there are girls there and they are my friends, they ask me to play, and they are walking towards me from each direction, and i want to stay, it seems like the most perfect place in the world and i could be happy here, forever more. But then i hear Prince whisper in my ear - its not real, its a dream, you need to get out of here NOW! FLY!!1 and i look away from my friends face and towards the doorway on the other end. I can't remember how to fly but then i can feel a piece of my soul break - like a inner wall coming down and I'm flying towards the doorway, over the girls who scream in rage , reaching up to get me. I go through the doorway into the next white room which has a row of windows. The windows are square but there is no glass, and they look out on the country side and i can see a steam train going past in the distance, smoke billowing behind it. I almost fly out the window when i remember - even if i fly out the window i will still be in the realm of the deamon, so i need to find the way out! Even though outside that window it seems like heaven to me, and even now remembering it breaks my heart. I wish i could be there, the place of my childhood. 
Anyway, i fly down the room towards the doorway, and after this i can't quite remember how i get out of that part. The only thing i can remember next is I'm running in the darkness again but this time its like I'm in a maze, there are walls all around me, and Prince is telling me to turn left, right, right then left.  He suddenly yells "stop!" and so i do, then he says walk fast now until you come upon the wall. I walk two steps and the wall is there, then he tells me i need to find a certain rock that is slightly jutting out more than the others, and push it. I feel around the rocks but i can't find it! and I'm panicking and crying now, i can hear the deamon coming tump thump thump louder and closer behind me, and i know we are almost out of time, , but just before i lose all home i find it and push it, and next thing i know the awl opens up and i can see the beautiful glow of the sun out on the sands of the desert. Then i just bolt out that exit, with Prince on my shoulder screaming at me to go, and i can feel the brush of the deamons fingertips on my back as it reaches out the doorway to get me, then it roars. But it can't follow me in the light, and even though i know this i just keep running, going and going, hours going by until i finally look behind me and the pyramid is far in the distance behind me. Then i collapse on the ground clutching myself, as i struggle for air and my heart pounds fast in my chest. Prince falls from my shoulder to the ground and then he sort of rolls over onto his feet, and looks up at me. I bust into tears which makes my breathing worst. After a while i recover myself and while still gasping for air, prince tells me we need to keep going. I tell him i need to rest but he tells me i need to get away as fast and as further away as possible. I deamon will be after me as soon as the sun has sunk below the horizon, but the night is short here and he will not have as much time to search for us as we have to get away from him, so he will do what ever it takes to catch up with us so we can't tarry. I grudgingly agree and we go on our way. the sun is hot, the heat from the sand burns my legs even though I'm wearing shoes, and when the sun finally goes down Prince says we can stop. I ask why don't we keep on going and he says we need to stay still in the darkness, since movement will be easier to spot for the demon. We  settle behind a particularly large sand dune, and prince helps me to bury myself in the warm sand as the night settles in. Everything is a blue tint at this point. I fall asleep and for some reason i wake up half way through the night. I open my eyes and everything in the desert is lit up by the brilliant light of the moon. There are thousands of stars in the sky and not a cloud in sight. I try to settle down again when i suddenly realise there is a black form only 20 feet away from me, it looks like a man! Im terrified and frozen with fear as i think this might be the demon, I'm too scared to even call out to Prince, and then the form starts walking towards me!!! Im about to scream when the form says my name, and the voice sounds so familiar i hesitate. Then i recognise where i heard the voice and say "it can't be!!! Prince?" 
"yes its me" i can see him smile in the moonlight. 
"but .. how?"
he shrugs then looks up towards the beautiful big moon. 
"i made a deal with the moon, she turned me back to my original form and healed my arms."
"so you were a boy.. all along?" i can't believe it, i was just getting used to having a talking pet. 
"i think I'm a bit too old to be called a boy don't you think?"
(i remember this convo only for that line LOL, my brain is weird)
Um i can't remember whart really happened after this, but i remember where my brain intended this dream to go. I was going to fall in love with Prince, who is like a son of this powerful magical guy who ruled over this realm - and the ones who lived in that realm ruled over our world - like the moon and the sun and the night and day. But the deal he made with the moon wasn't really a good one. I think he couldn't go back to his kingdom - ever even though he was heir to the throne. I can't remember a thing after that though which sucks. 


My other dream which i had a few nights ago - I've almost completely forgotten it but there is just one part i want to remember - but first the background - i was two people in this dream - one a boy and one a girl, the boy being the older brother to the girl. The girl looked more like me with strawberry ginger hair and the boy had blond curly ringlets. The brother had his friends over and i can't remember why or anything but we were at this beach area, and the brother and his friends decided they wanted to get back to the house. But like the beach was like this - ill start with the waves hitting the beach, then from the water if you walked up the beach you would come out of the water onto the sand then up a bit further you had to stop dead in front of this cliff that went on forever on either side. The cliff was made entirely of the sand on the beach - hard to explain. So the brother and his friends got all their alpine ropes out then flung them up the cliff then started climbing the ropes up, and the girl cried up to her brother she couldn't throw the rope up and needed help, and the brothers friends just laughed as the brother yelled down figure it out by yourself. He cared about her but at that moment he was really angry at her. So they all climbed up the cliff that went on into the clouds and sitting on top of the clouds was the house. And since it was a cloudy day you couldn't look down and see the beach. So the sister kept trying to throw the rope up but it just wouldn't catch on anything. Then she tried it pathetically one more time, feeling as though she wanted to cry and it finally caught! But only half way up but she thought she would figure out what to do next when she got there. So she started climbing up, taking two arm lengths then her grip slipped and she let go of the rope and fell! But instead of hitting the ground - she fell right though it! The only trace she left behind was a slight indent in the space where she fell. 
So up in the house the boys were mucking around joking with each other when the brother decided to go have a shower, and just as he was walking into there, one of his friends asked him where his sister was, that she was taking a while, and he suddenly felt bad for leaving her behind so he decided to go help her up. But when him and a few of his mates climbed down on there ropes and poked their heads out from under the clouds, they couldn't see anyone at the bottom of the cliff. They couldn't understand where she had went, and so they started climbing down to look for her, when one of the boys (the fattest one) slipped and started to fall while still holding his rope. They all watched in horror as he fell to the ground in slow motion, but then they all got a shock when he fell through the sand and then his rope finally pulled firm. They heard him call out "I'm ok!" then finally "fuck you guys should see this! Im above a rain forest!" 

after that i can't really remember the dream, which sucks since it was a really cool one, especially what happened before this part that I've just written. 
But i think i remember vaguely what was to happen - the fairies had kidnapped the little sister, and the boys went on a hunt to find her. dude i wish i could remember my dreams better! not just little bits but the whole thing!

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Reminder to myself

Im going to go back and rewrite my old dreams - they are a nightmare to read! Starting with the oldest to the latest. Maybe ill turn them into a story or something i dunno. Bleh.

Fight to the death and a card game


i can't really remember what happened exactly - i probably could if i tried but it was a nightmare so i don't really want to. Ill remember whatever i need to to just keep it in context but it aint that great.


so what happened was this - i was at my old primary school - lol but anyway, i was with this lady and i knew her well apparently. she had curly-ish blonde hair and she was all hippy looking - she was wearing a beautiful skirt, a white top and she looked about in her 40s. She was looking terrified, so terrified that she couldn't even think straight, she was just sitting there, frozen and i was trying to convince her to run. Thats when my boss turned up. My boss had really white skin, black hair and black eyes, actually on looking back she looked a bit like joan jett. She was wearing this really black flowy gown that trailed behind her, i i don't remember why but i was terrified of her. But I'm happy with myself in this dream since i was exactly like myself in real life - i was scared of her but if anything happened i wasn't afraid to fight fucking back. So she was looking for this lady and i knew it, so i stepped in front of the lady to hide her from my boss's view. My boss asked me where the lady was, and told me to find her or i was in trouble (its funny though because when we talked to each other no words were spoken, i don't even remember her mouth moving, its like we just talked through sensing each others feelings - no actual words were formed even in my head at all). I told her id find her so don't worry (my boss never noticed her behind me - i know she assumed it was one of my young mates). So she left and i started trying to get the lady to move again and i finally got her to get up and start running across the tennis court towards the playgrounds - but we skipped past the playground and for some reason the set of stairs down to the field was right next to it - and we headed for it. We were half way down when i looked back from where we just were - and i saw my boss and her soldiers coming round the corner, and i knew we were pretty much dead. That is when death turned up - i knew i was the only one who could see him and for some reason i knew him well. He was in his robe, and i couldn't see his face, i don't remember if he was a skeleton or not and he was holding his (weapon) and he told me it was time for the lady who i was trying to help get away to die. And i looked at him and told him to fuck off. No one was going to die here tonight. And he tilted his head at me - i knew that he had cuz i saw his hood tilt slightly and he was like she has to die tonight and you know that, and i cant stop it no matter what i do. But i yelled at him to FUCK OFF and I'm not letting ANYONE die tonight and i will fight him as much as it takes to make sure she doest die! And i knew that he just looked at me pitifully and shook his head, and i felt a bit scared since i had a crush on death and i didn't want him to hate me for yelling at him lol. Then he disappeared and i yelled at the lady to go cause i knew the soldiers were tracking her scent and would be here in a sec (they all were still at the place where we just left so the thing with Death must have all happened in a second). She left and i ran back because i could see our soldiers were running from the playground into the tennis courts, and they were going to fight soon so i had to make sure my niece and nephew weren't in the tennis court. I ran to the front of our soldiers getting ready to fight and i found them, and yelled at them to get to the playgrounds, i grabbed their hands and pulled them along as i ran towards the playground, but then i realised i knew our soldiers were amateurs and my boss's were skilled and so i had to help them and i knew since i was a skilled archer (lol in my dreams) the best place for me to be to help our soldiers would be to get to the highest point in the playground and attack from there, but i wanted to give the soliders encouragement and i didn't want them to think they were alone - i wanted them to know where i was so let go of my nieces and nephews hands and told them to run into the playground and hide and ill be there as soon as possible. So i ran back to the soliders to tell them but thats when my boss's soldiers started attacking. They were goblins, ogres and sprites, all green and grey flesh and they were huge as they ran to us, i had a split second though to decide to stay - i thought even though id be better help being a archer i can't run now or my soldiers will think I'm a coward - and they would prob run too so i got my sword out and ran towards them to fight and clashed into the goblins, etc. It took me three huge slashes to take down one, and when i looked around i saw that it took longer for my soldiers to fight back since they weren't as skilled as me, and it only took the goblins, etc one slash to take down one of my soldiers. My soldiers were getting killed left right and centre and i thought "shit!!" cause i knew we were getting slaughtered. I thought i knew i should have fell back to fight as a archer and this was the wrong decision and thats when i realised it was too late now, there were only three of us left and as i looked around i saw my soldiers get taken down, then i looked in front of me and saw a ogre come towards me holding his sword up ready to swipe and i thought well at least i died fighting!!! And also that i was going to meet death in a mo. and thats it. there is more and i could probably remember it if i tried but i don't want to.



i remember the first time i dreamt that i died, i can't really remember the dream entirely since i prob dreamt it when i was six, but basically there was this clown rag doll, and it was bigger and taller than me. I think my aunty had one at her house and that was what i was dreaming. I wasn't afraid of clowns or anything, its just this clown had a crush on me, and i told him i didn't like him so he stalked me and killed me and i just remember this intense fear of being afraid of the clown since i didn't know i was dreaming and i didn't want to die. But after i died My dream suddenly turned black and white and i could see myself murdered in the clowns arms. And yeah, the dream went on from there in black and white. really weird lol



but i had this day dream before i went to sleep last night. I don't know if thats the right thing to call it but i don't know any better phrase, since i was dreaming but i wasn't asleep, i was just letting my imagination run wild, but at the same time i was falling asleep and i actually have no conrol over my imagination, about what i want to dream about, so its not really like day dreaming. Any way the dream was that i was playing cards with my mum, we were playing snap and i could see the cards in my hands were like the cards in alice in wonderland - they had heads, arms and legs and were holding spears and they looked up at me as we played. Any way, i went to go put a card down, but suddenly my arm and my hand was a skeleton and the card i put down was a tarot card, it depicted death in his robe with his sheath, and he was holding out his hand and cutting it off with his other. The sky was grey and he stood on green grass, there was a white lamb next to him on the ground and a rose hanging upside down above him with the sun on the top left side of the card, only half showing and the other side was a waning or waxing moon, meh the only part showing was the left side of the moon, the rest was dark and that was in the top right corner. Then my mum who was suddenly not my mum anymore but a skeleton grinning at me in a purple top hat and red bow tie and purple suit with a red shirt, put down another tart card and it had on it a demon, smiling up at me while crouching on the world, facing towards me, the whole card was blue while the demon and world and stars were outlined in black and the demon turned red then laughed at me and jumped up at me. But as it jumped towards me it turned int a spider and then into a fish with razor sharp teeth. But it just swam sideways into the back of my mind while other creepy things swam behind it and i must've fell asleep then cause i can't remember after that.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

I just wanted to add two things - my mum had fell asleep in her chair at the tv the other night, and i got up at one to wake her up. I started singing soflty to wake her up then i just said loudly and clear "mum" and she looked at me then said, i heard you, i thought you were on guard duty. i said guard duty for what and she said the chickens, and then she said thats right it cant get wet itll get runny. i said what? the chicken manure. then you cant burn it. I was so confused!

also - i dreamt my friend was in my next door neighbors house - she lived there with her family  - but on the inside it looked like my next door neighbors house, but on the outside it was a extremely rich house - except for the kitchen. The kitchen was at the front of the house too which was funny. I was on my way out of the house since they were all starting to sit down in the dining room to eat dinner. I had a bad feeling that I should get out of there asap when this cute guy who was there with me, said "oh, i forgot my phone in the dining room, ill just go to get it!" And i said "no~ get it tomorrow - ill tell you why later" but he was like "yeah right, i paid $800 for that phone, im getting it now in case it goes missing." So i said "fine but im coming with you! And we have to be quick!" Since i thought my friend wouldn't kill me - since we are friends - but i knew the guy didnt have much of a chance. We walked into the dining room and the smell of blood hit me - making me feel sick. My friend and her family were sitting at the dining room table eating spaghetti bolognaise - and i couldnt help but thinking it looked like blood and noodles. I knew we had to leave immediately - so we grabbed his phone then ran out of the house. I had to explain nicely to her family of course before we left. Once we were out of the house i felt relieved - we just survived dinner with vampires :D