just remember these!

So i don't really have time to write these dreams down now but i don't really want to forget about it yet. There are two dreams that i want to remember, the first one: i don't really care about the whole dream, its just that one part where i walk out onto the old steps of my house, (the ones that are now gone) where i can see the sunset from. Its the most beautiful sunset i have ever seen, even though it wasn't even real. Just those colours of blue .... at the top, ranging from light to dark ~ like how it is on a beautiful sunny day. then there were white cumulus clouds stretching over the horizon, dark at the bottom but lit up and golden at the top. And the sun ... peaking out just over the church ... a golden light that just lit up the whole sky. It was so .... beautiful. I just find it so funny that at that point in my dream, just before i stepped out of the door onto the steps, i was thinking to myself that i knew i was dreaming, and i had to wake up in the morning. But it felt so real...and as i was stepping through the door i was telling myself to wake up!! But just as i was thinking "how do i wake myself up?" I saw that sunset and i just froze. And then suddenly i thought to myself ... "no, i don't want to wake up. I'm just going to sit on these steps like i did when i was younger and watch the sunset." And for a few moments, i felt like i was watching heaven. But then that stupid black bull appeared in front of me and i was so scared that it would see me and attack that i just stayed still and thought, "OK now i want to wake up". And i thought that if i stayed absolutely still it wouldn't see me, and then it jumped into the ground, which should have been the ground but suddenly the ground was water, and although it still looked like the ground and the hedge was there, it was peaking and troughing like waves. And it swam for a bit then surfaced and shook its head to get the water off, and the sunset was still there, and i was thinking to myself maybe i could sneak in the doorway when it wasn't looking. But it was moving so fast and turning around all the time i realized i couldn't do that or it would see me and it would get to me before i even had a chance to get in the door way. So then i just thought maybe ill wait for it to leave and while i was waiting i could watch the sunset. So there i sat, though every two seconds i looked back at it to check where the bull was. And after that the dream went somewhere else while i tried to wake myself up. Which reminds me i have to look that up! And it also reminds me of a dream i had about a year back where sharks swam in the air, and they couldn't go in water, and the ground everywhere had turned into water, so to get to one house to the next you had to get on a boat. And the only way to get away from sharks when they attacked was to jump in the water haha Don't really remember much from that dream though besides from that.

And the other dream i want to remember is the fairy dream. DO NOT forget about that! Maybe i should go into detail on that one ... basically ill start from before i even fell asleep: I had gotten into bed and lay down and i must of fell asleep instantly because i was thinking about how crappy i think my life is at the moment. I haven't been able to find a job for almost a year now, and I'm so sick of basically being called a bum. I was wishing i could get out of this lifestyle when i wished i could leave here forever. And that was when i pretty much had this great idea that i should runway to fairy land. I used to be obsessed with fairies when i was a kid, so i *knew* that if you ever eat or drink anything in fairy land then you can NEVER return to earth. So i got up out of bed, got ready, packed my bag full of things i thought i might need, and the bag sort of shrunk to the size of this old purple velvet pouch i had as a kid and i put the long cords around my neck. It was midnight but the moment i walked out the door the sun was rising, and it was my favorite kind of morning where the sunlight was filtering through the tree which was laden down with dew drops, which made the tree look like it was full of diamonds. The whole place was filled with sunlight which made everything seem like it was in a golden haze. I walked down the pathway through the garden and into my back yard (which is quite big). I walked through the garden, trees, and past the chicken pen, right to the back of my property where there's like this bush/jungle type area. For some reason i knew exactly where the entrance to fairy land was, and i think in my dream i could sense the fairies knew i wanted to go to fairy land so i could hear them talking, whispering and laughing (just like how i could as a kid).

 So i went to the corner of the bush area and crawled through the little hole in the bush that i had always crawled through as a kid (in real life i cant fit through it anymore) and came to this tree stump. There used to be this extremely tall tree at the end of my house when i was a kid, you could see it from anywhere in the whole suburb where i live, and it used to be easy to point out from like one tree hill, but it was cut down when i was in my teens, and since it was such a huge tree it had left this stump as big as a table. I tried to have picnics on it, and so in my dream there was the table cloth on it that i had wanted to use as a kid, and sitting round the stump having tea with jam on toast and having a good old debate was a hedgehog, a lizard, a sparrow and one of my mums ginger chickens. I sat down to join them and we were talking about something when they asked me what i was doing and i said i was going to fairy land. They were all shocked and warned me not to eat the food or i would be lost to the faeries forever and i remember saying i don't care I'm still going and they tried to persuade me otherwise, which got me really angry so i got up in a huff and stalked over to the entrance of fairy land, which was like a through this narrow part right at the back of our property which was covered in vines. I slipped in though and looked around and ...omfg i cant remember! I don't think i can remember anymore ... i remember at some point in the dream  i fell through these books and instead of falling *on* the books i fell *through* them and the books and i kept on falling through this void till i ended up in this dark pit. But that was when i was trapped in the sorcerer's cave. Some of its coming back to me now... when i started walking through fairy land i had ran into this ..i don't know what you call them. I thought they were brownies but they must be called something else cause when i looked up brownies that wasn't them. I used to know what they were when i was a kid. Basically they look like male faeries, but they have rows of sharp teeth and sharp fingernails. This one looked like this guy i knew, who is the son of a  friend of the family. In my dream his hair was really dark brown (but its not in real life) and his skin was more tanned than usual. He was wearing this brown shirt and he was smiling at me (like he always does, but with rows of sharp teeth).

I already knew what he was in my dream, and i knew how they ripped your heart out from you chest with their claws and ate it while it was still pumping while you watched them do it as you died. He was saying sweet things to me, trying to make me come closer but i freaked out and started running for it. In real life he is a faster runner than me and he started laughing as he came after me, and he was like "woohoo" as he ran saying "you know you cant get away from me!". I kinda knew that he was just playing with me now, cause he knew he could catch me so he was just savoring the chase. I saw this cave and i just darted straight for it. I thought i could hide from him there but then i remembered that they had a great sense of smell and could smell me out so i tried to sneak back out but then i saw him heading straight for me. I ran deeper into the cave and found that it just kept on going, i couldn't see a thing but my footsteps echoed around me, so i just kept running for it. I could hear him behind me screaming "NOOO! Come back here!" and as i kept running i heard his footsteps get further and further away till they finally stopped. I wondered why he stopped but up ahead i started to see a light, and i just bolted for it. I got closer and closer till finally i came to the end of the cave, and it turned and opened into this huge room. I remember the fire blazing in the fireplace, and some things about the room, pillars carved out of rock, candles everywhere with wax dripping down, books every where and these weird metal instruments, some i recognized as measuring things. I don't remember much at this point except that i found out it belonged to a sorcerer, he had long straight black hair to his waist, light blue eyes and really white skin (shaped like jaco van den hovens eyes but he didn't look like him). All i remember was that he was totally horrible, and that's when i fell through the books after arguing with him.

I cant remember much after that. I f anything ever comes back to me ill update this. But other than that~ that's it :( OMG i wish i could remember more!

Monday 26 august :

two things i remember about this dream : One was that when i first stepped into fairy land it looked like the cover of this book i used to have as a wee kid. All the pages were see through but they had paintings of a hill, a tree or a duck on it and each time you turned a page it revealed the hill behind the front one. It was so cool and i completely forgot about it! I cant believe i dreamt of it being fairy land haha.
Another thing i remember was that in the sorcerers fire place were fire salamanders. I remember now because they were what was making the fire blaze so brightly. They were just lazing around in the fire, sometimes one crawling on top of another to sleep better.

So little time, and such short memory TT

I have so many dreams that are often too complicated for me just to come on here and quickly write them down. I wish that i could have a better memory so that even after a long period of time, i would still be able to remember them. That way, when i actually have the time and privacy to log into here, then i would be able to write them down. Sucky.

I cant really remember my dream from last night. But my dreams are so fun, i have a really great imagination when I'm asleep, but its like when I'm awake my creativity is zero. Must be the depression kicking in. I must feel more freedom while I'm asleep :T


So Ill probably work backwards from the last thing that happened in my dream last night, maybe that ll help me remember.

So the last thing i was doing was looking down this staircase, I was in the middle of it, like there were more stairs leading up above. I was holding my rifle and getting ready to attack, cause i had no idea from which way they would come. All the lights were on and the frames and staircase were all white, while the walls were pink, and the lights all gave a kind of soft golden glow. Then suddenly the door to my left opened up, and two elderly people came out, one a old pakeha woman with curly white hair and the other a old Asian woman with stark white straight hair. I wasn't sure if they were OK or not, but the way they looked at me and moved so nimbly gave me my clue. I battered the old pakeha lady across the head with my gun/club then pushed her body down the stairs. The Asian lady got to me though, she grabbed me, and i sort of froze before pushing her over the side of the rail and down the set of stairs. I looked down and a girl with black hair and white skin was looking up at me. I looked up and some boys were running down the stairs towards me, I screamed RUN to the old people i were protecting in the room behind me, and stayed there to hold the invaders back. Then i heard movement outside my window and woke up :) So that dream pretty much ended halfway through and i have no possible idea as to how i can end it T_T

Before that i had ran into this room, and saw some old people sitting in these old chairs watching TV, one was a old guy and the other a old lady, they were so shocked to see me and the old guy stood up saying "Oh!" But I told them to stay still and quite, I put down my precious backpack with *her* in it (oh btw Ive transformed into a guy at some point) because i know i can fight better with it off, and it will be protected because no one would think to go after a backpack. I move towards the doorway to the staircase to the left, i can hear some screaming above, some banging noises, and i see a body fall down the stairs, the boy screaming (probably in his teens) as he fell, then thud as he hit the stairs below.

And before that, I was with the people who worked/lived in the building - which was a rest-home, at the bottom floor, there were windows instead of walls for the bottom, i could see the invaders outside, I whispered orders at the people to follow me, i was going to take them to a car outside and lead them to safety, but that's when i see the invaders coming closer, looking like ordinary people. I was at the door with my hand on the handle, i see them running closer, we are all already standing at the door, so i lock it and tell them all to remain very still, and they wont be able to see us. (Because it is so dark and for some reason, there are mannequins in the other windows, so i knew it would work - dream logic haha). Everyone stands very still except for this stupid chick with a bright pink jumper on, and long straight brown hair with a fringe who keeps looking at them, then looking at us and gaping with her eyes open while crying, looking like she wants to scream, so i tell her to stay quiet and stop moving, but she wont, and the invaders are all standing at the door/window now, looking in. They see her, then this girl with dark brown hair and white skin and brown eyes looks into my eyes and i know, they are going to kill us, and i scream to all the people inside to "RUN! UPSTAIRS-GO! GO! GO!" Just as that happens i see from the corner of my eyes the a black man amongst the invaders holding up a axe to the window (which is bullet proof btw) and bringing it down upon it and it cracks and i know it wont hold up - their weapons are too powerful. Everyone starts running upstairs, and i try to get in front to direct them where to go, and we go into this room and i see french doors in it, so i tell the people to go through it and try to get to the safety point - One Tree Hill, (which is a good 15 minutes running up the hill - probably 30 mins slow walking from the place in my dream) and some go through but some keep running up the stairs in a frantic terror and i yell "NO! Come BACK! URGH!!!" And start running up the stairs after them, knowing the invaders could fly and could come from the above soon, though they may not have reached the back yet and that was our only escape/hope. We could not overcome them if they were to surround this rest home. I get to the next floor and see some persons leg just as the turn the corner into the next hallway, so i run down the hallway to catch up, but when i turn left then it comes to two different hallways, and i don't know which way they have run, so i take the right as i can see the other leads to more stairs, and that's when i run into the room with the old people in it.

Bleh this is getting really boring writing this dream, so i wont bother to write everything i remember now. Just the main points.

So before that part, i was driving up the road as fast as i could, when i see one way up to One Tree Hill is blocked, so i try to turn left and go up another way i know - which is this road that is one way, and on either side of it is a rest home and a driving school, the roads kind of fork out to two and i wanted to take the road through the driving school but it is blocked so i think, Doesn't matter, ill go up the rest home one but then my car breaks down T_T So i scream "get out" to the people in my car, and we run into the rest home building. I look back over the view of the place i live, and for one moment, everything looks normal, but then my eyes go back to normal (a spell had been cast over the place to change what people see) and i see the fires and hear the gun shots in the distance (our only weapon against them- which actually don't work against them - the only way to truly fight and kill them is by overpowering them in a sword fight or by using old weapons). I can see the invaders getting closer to where we are - i had gotten ahead of them by being in a car but i cant get away now. I mentally curse myself for not getting that motorbike Ive always wanted. So we go inside and i have lots of memories about the place, before it was a comic book store, blah blah blah, memories thought of here (dream ones-in real life this is my old school haha), moving on, there are old people inside and the nurses and caretakers and they have no idea what is going on, and so i explain to them what is happening, and they start to freak, so that's when i say "come on!" Thinking Ill take one of the driving school cars - ill just hot wire it. And we run to the doors/windows.

So before that i had gotten into my car at my house and yelled at my friends which were my next door neighbors to get into the car, and we got into it and that's when i remembered reading somewhere that One Tree Hill was a safety point (cause i was really into magic and stuff when i was a kid). Like the invaders couldn't get to us from there. So i started driving towards it as fast as i could and the streets were pretty much deserted like there was no one around.

And this is the difficult part that i find really hard to remember. In stead of going backwards now i think ill just choose a point of which i can remember and go from there.

So i was in my bedroom and i was running around getting everything together. I grabbed my backpack and started stuffing a whole lot of supplies i thought i might need into it.

~~~~~~~;thought id just publish this one, its incomplete but ill forget about it if i don't! FINISH LATER whatever you can remember by then.


26-Aug

Meh, so i don't remember much of this dream anymore, but the bits and pieces are still in my head. Without going into too much detail, this dream was sort of like from a memory of a nightmare i had when i was a kid, where i learnt how to fly (that was the fun part, but the flying ninjas who were out to kill be was the nightmare part). But in this dream it had been granted to me by the fairies~ that i could fly. They had taught me how to when i was a kid, but in this dream i had now grown up, and i was just teaching my friends and family how to fly when suddenly there is this big invasion by the kingdom of elves fairies and mermaids who are the enemies of our kingdom (or the one i am affiliated with - like there is fairyland and earth in my dream and the enemy kingdom who is our enemy in fairyland is now invading earth- who besides me have no idea about fairyland!). Its really pretty the image i have of the fairies - who are dressed in blue, some are flying and some are not. They all have old weapons like spears, swords, axes and bows, and they are all amazingly stunning to look at, like they all have a certain glow about them which makes them beautiful. ANYWAY~ they are out to get me and kill me and so ... i have to get away and i think i remember i tried to talk to them, to reason with them, but it was futile so i ran inside my house (this was all happening in my backyard btw, though there was like a portal open so i could see into fairyland and into the trees and valleys behind the portal) and i ran into my room and i started packing my bag. For some reason i sort of split here, and now there are two of me except one of me is a guy. And i cant remember why but for some reason i have a great amount of power and magic and i am earths, or well Auckland's only hope of stopping the invasion. I know that i can plan my retaliation from One Tree Hill, and not only that but it is a safe point where their magic cant get to us, and they cant enter it. So the guy me suggests because i am so important that i should hide in the bag while he carries me to One Tree Hill, and so I (girl) shrink and get in it, and  i love this image in my head where i am stuck in a series of cob webs, safe and secure. Its like dark but the webs are white and I'm in a white dress. So after that it switches only to my guys point of view and i run outside and that's when i get in a car in my driveway and yell at my friends to get in, while I'm worrying about my family who live so close to One Tree Hill, and I'm hoping they go that way. And that's it, without going into too much detail its much shorter haha.

Some old dreams

Had these ones quite a while back, i found them while i exploring the labyrinth of folders i have on my computer :D Thought id just add them here, though i wrote them aaaaaaages ago! ~

How I write these are either a shortcut to explain my thoughts/ how i think things (usually i just have thoughts, with no words), or even in my dream there could be a narrative.

lol by the way .. i mostly have nightmares -_-"

*Black moon

A girl. Long golden curly locks fall past her shoulders, and her white dress sways in the wind. Her skin glows in the moonlight, its light enhancing its ivory colour. She is standing in the middle of the country side, upon the top of the highest hill. The moon is at its full, all the clouds parted in the sky, surrounding and circling the moon. The clouds are dark, and instead of snow falling from them, ashes fall from the sky. A few of them fall on her eyelashes, fluttering as blue eyes divert their attention downwards. The hills open to a valley way below, where she looks on. A small village sits in the center of a stream that flows through the middle of the valley, the only source of light coming from the moon that hangs above it. It is a small village, quaint in its size and structure. A small bridge connects either side of the village over the stream. She stares on, all emotion void on her face. Her destination.

A white house on the corner of the street, its window wide open, its blue curtains swaying as the blustering wind pulls them outwards to the open sky. The house looks almost blue in the moonlight, as it rises against the shadows. She waits before it, waiting patiently. A small girl approaches from the blue door opening from the structure. She has dark brown hair, and brown eyes. Her skin is pink with colour, battling the harsh blow of the cool night air. She walks towards the beautiful figure and smiles. She takes her hand, pulling her along. She wants to play. Often the little one sneaks out past the time the sunsets, and waits till her parents fall asleep to play in the darkness. She is excited for finding a playmate finally in the darkness, and she is welcoming to the new presence. Her heart is warm with happiness.

Specks of blood is splattered along the road. The girl is no where to be seen, but her window remains open, waiting for her return.

Many nights have passed, and many a moon. It is again high in the sky, and in full bloom. The clouds once again circle it, as ash falls from the sky. The girl has returned, unaged and as beautiful as ever. Beside her this time, stands a small girl.  She holds her hand, though, there is no emotion evident on her face. Her heart, once warm, no longer glows from the touch of her companions hand.  The window remains closed now, and all doors locked.

Many dreams later ~~~

Side by side, they stand together, once again upon the hill top. All emotion is void upon their faces, the only sound that can be heard, is the roaring of the wind. A new presence appears, and the older girl looks up. The silhouette of a man against the night sky, his dark curly hair waving in the wind, his lily white skin sticking out in the shadows. Though she cannot see them, she can feel his eyes upon her. Her master is here.

>>And another dream i had to do with this one was not long after i had those other two was the girl and the older lady had appeared at the same village again, like 100 years after the little girl was killed, and the same house the girl had lived in had the window open again, and a small boy with brown hair, fair skin and chocolate brown eyes was playing out on the streets, and the little girl went up to him, smiling at him (showing rows of sharp teeth), and he smiley back, and as they started to play "ring a ring a Rosie" the older girl walked up and the younger girl took the boys hand and led him to the older girl, who he smiled up at while she looked down with a smirk. That was it. He was dead after that.

*Aim for the apple

He was the best there was. World known for never missing a shot. Not once since he first picked up the bow and arrow when he was nine. His name was legendary. Everyone watched as he held up his bow, stretching the string, his arrow in place. His blue eyes narrowed on the target, as his strawberry blond hair waved slightly in the breeze, tied back with a green ribbon. His best friend had suggested they play a little game. Thirty yards in front of him stood he stood, with a bright red apple resting on his head. His friend stood tall, chest puffed out, proud to participating with his friend in font of the on looking crowds. Woman in bonnets and men in white wigs looked on. Today was a day to remember.

All was silent, and with the release of his finger grip on the arrow, all that could be heard was the soft hiss as the arrow flew through the air and met with its destination. Screams shook the air, as blood tainted the grass beneath him. As his friend fell, the boy ran to him, crying and shouting out to the stunned onlookers. Taking his head in his lap he cried as he looked over his friend. Wide with pain, all acknowledgement of his presence were void in his friends eyes. People crowded around, woman sobbing, as his friend choked and gagged on blood. His last breath, consisted with a mouthful of blood, and a arrow sticking out of his Adams apple.

It was a mournful ceremony. Articles in newspapers appeared nationwide. The legend was over. Many people tried to comfort him, assure him it was not his fault, that it was just a tragic mistake. And he would sit there, listening, without a word as he would stare on into the distance, and smile meekly at those who spoke. All had heard about his calamity over the unfortunate mistake. They would whisper as he passed. He had never missed, not once in his lifetime, until that fateful blue summers day that took his best friends life. And he would wonder as he heard them... he had never missed. Not once in his life. And that day under the green apple tree, while all the lords and ladies had been watching, had been no exception. He never missed.

lol, ill never forget that dream, it was the first time that i ever dreamt i was a boy hahaha freaked me out but i liked the overall dream so i decided to write it down. It was also one of the first dreams of mine i ever wrote :D And of course you can guess which boy i am if you know my hair colour ~ (hint, its strawberry blonde/ginge)