just remember these!

So i don't really have time to write these dreams down now but i don't really want to forget about it yet. There are two dreams that i want to remember, the first one: i don't really care about the whole dream, its just that one part where i walk out onto the old steps of my house, (the ones that are now gone) where i can see the sunset from. Its the most beautiful sunset i have ever seen, even though it wasn't even real. Just those colours of blue .... at the top, ranging from light to dark ~ like how it is on a beautiful sunny day. then there were white cumulus clouds stretching over the horizon, dark at the bottom but lit up and golden at the top. And the sun ... peaking out just over the church ... a golden light that just lit up the whole sky. It was so .... beautiful. I just find it so funny that at that point in my dream, just before i stepped out of the door onto the steps, i was thinking to myself that i knew i was dreaming, and i had to wake up in the morning. But it felt so real...and as i was stepping through the door i was telling myself to wake up!! But just as i was thinking "how do i wake myself up?" I saw that sunset and i just froze. And then suddenly i thought to myself ... "no, i don't want to wake up. I'm just going to sit on these steps like i did when i was younger and watch the sunset." And for a few moments, i felt like i was watching heaven. But then that stupid black bull appeared in front of me and i was so scared that it would see me and attack that i just stayed still and thought, "OK now i want to wake up". And i thought that if i stayed absolutely still it wouldn't see me, and then it jumped into the ground, which should have been the ground but suddenly the ground was water, and although it still looked like the ground and the hedge was there, it was peaking and troughing like waves. And it swam for a bit then surfaced and shook its head to get the water off, and the sunset was still there, and i was thinking to myself maybe i could sneak in the doorway when it wasn't looking. But it was moving so fast and turning around all the time i realized i couldn't do that or it would see me and it would get to me before i even had a chance to get in the door way. So then i just thought maybe ill wait for it to leave and while i was waiting i could watch the sunset. So there i sat, though every two seconds i looked back at it to check where the bull was. And after that the dream went somewhere else while i tried to wake myself up. Which reminds me i have to look that up! And it also reminds me of a dream i had about a year back where sharks swam in the air, and they couldn't go in water, and the ground everywhere had turned into water, so to get to one house to the next you had to get on a boat. And the only way to get away from sharks when they attacked was to jump in the water haha Don't really remember much from that dream though besides from that.

And the other dream i want to remember is the fairy dream. DO NOT forget about that! Maybe i should go into detail on that one ... basically ill start from before i even fell asleep: I had gotten into bed and lay down and i must of fell asleep instantly because i was thinking about how crappy i think my life is at the moment. I haven't been able to find a job for almost a year now, and I'm so sick of basically being called a bum. I was wishing i could get out of this lifestyle when i wished i could leave here forever. And that was when i pretty much had this great idea that i should runway to fairy land. I used to be obsessed with fairies when i was a kid, so i *knew* that if you ever eat or drink anything in fairy land then you can NEVER return to earth. So i got up out of bed, got ready, packed my bag full of things i thought i might need, and the bag sort of shrunk to the size of this old purple velvet pouch i had as a kid and i put the long cords around my neck. It was midnight but the moment i walked out the door the sun was rising, and it was my favorite kind of morning where the sunlight was filtering through the tree which was laden down with dew drops, which made the tree look like it was full of diamonds. The whole place was filled with sunlight which made everything seem like it was in a golden haze. I walked down the pathway through the garden and into my back yard (which is quite big). I walked through the garden, trees, and past the chicken pen, right to the back of my property where there's like this bush/jungle type area. For some reason i knew exactly where the entrance to fairy land was, and i think in my dream i could sense the fairies knew i wanted to go to fairy land so i could hear them talking, whispering and laughing (just like how i could as a kid).

 So i went to the corner of the bush area and crawled through the little hole in the bush that i had always crawled through as a kid (in real life i cant fit through it anymore) and came to this tree stump. There used to be this extremely tall tree at the end of my house when i was a kid, you could see it from anywhere in the whole suburb where i live, and it used to be easy to point out from like one tree hill, but it was cut down when i was in my teens, and since it was such a huge tree it had left this stump as big as a table. I tried to have picnics on it, and so in my dream there was the table cloth on it that i had wanted to use as a kid, and sitting round the stump having tea with jam on toast and having a good old debate was a hedgehog, a lizard, a sparrow and one of my mums ginger chickens. I sat down to join them and we were talking about something when they asked me what i was doing and i said i was going to fairy land. They were all shocked and warned me not to eat the food or i would be lost to the faeries forever and i remember saying i don't care I'm still going and they tried to persuade me otherwise, which got me really angry so i got up in a huff and stalked over to the entrance of fairy land, which was like a through this narrow part right at the back of our property which was covered in vines. I slipped in though and looked around and ...omfg i cant remember! I don't think i can remember anymore ... i remember at some point in the dream  i fell through these books and instead of falling *on* the books i fell *through* them and the books and i kept on falling through this void till i ended up in this dark pit. But that was when i was trapped in the sorcerer's cave. Some of its coming back to me now... when i started walking through fairy land i had ran into this ..i don't know what you call them. I thought they were brownies but they must be called something else cause when i looked up brownies that wasn't them. I used to know what they were when i was a kid. Basically they look like male faeries, but they have rows of sharp teeth and sharp fingernails. This one looked like this guy i knew, who is the son of a  friend of the family. In my dream his hair was really dark brown (but its not in real life) and his skin was more tanned than usual. He was wearing this brown shirt and he was smiling at me (like he always does, but with rows of sharp teeth).

I already knew what he was in my dream, and i knew how they ripped your heart out from you chest with their claws and ate it while it was still pumping while you watched them do it as you died. He was saying sweet things to me, trying to make me come closer but i freaked out and started running for it. In real life he is a faster runner than me and he started laughing as he came after me, and he was like "woohoo" as he ran saying "you know you cant get away from me!". I kinda knew that he was just playing with me now, cause he knew he could catch me so he was just savoring the chase. I saw this cave and i just darted straight for it. I thought i could hide from him there but then i remembered that they had a great sense of smell and could smell me out so i tried to sneak back out but then i saw him heading straight for me. I ran deeper into the cave and found that it just kept on going, i couldn't see a thing but my footsteps echoed around me, so i just kept running for it. I could hear him behind me screaming "NOOO! Come back here!" and as i kept running i heard his footsteps get further and further away till they finally stopped. I wondered why he stopped but up ahead i started to see a light, and i just bolted for it. I got closer and closer till finally i came to the end of the cave, and it turned and opened into this huge room. I remember the fire blazing in the fireplace, and some things about the room, pillars carved out of rock, candles everywhere with wax dripping down, books every where and these weird metal instruments, some i recognized as measuring things. I don't remember much at this point except that i found out it belonged to a sorcerer, he had long straight black hair to his waist, light blue eyes and really white skin (shaped like jaco van den hovens eyes but he didn't look like him). All i remember was that he was totally horrible, and that's when i fell through the books after arguing with him.

I cant remember much after that. I f anything ever comes back to me ill update this. But other than that~ that's it :( OMG i wish i could remember more!

Monday 26 august :

two things i remember about this dream : One was that when i first stepped into fairy land it looked like the cover of this book i used to have as a wee kid. All the pages were see through but they had paintings of a hill, a tree or a duck on it and each time you turned a page it revealed the hill behind the front one. It was so cool and i completely forgot about it! I cant believe i dreamt of it being fairy land haha.
Another thing i remember was that in the sorcerers fire place were fire salamanders. I remember now because they were what was making the fire blaze so brightly. They were just lazing around in the fire, sometimes one crawling on top of another to sleep better.